Friday, June 5, 2009

Reinterpretation of the dream

When we first moved here, and once I stopped crying, we saw nothing but possibilities and trees, now we only see the trees and they are blocking our view of the forest. And I’ve started to cry again. Throughout daily life walking around the farm, tears well-up in the corner of my eyes. I am mourning the loss of a dream and possibly losing my dreamer’s quality. Maybe it’s just becoming more realistic, or refining my life goals.
One of the facts we have admitted to ourselves is that we have too much urbanite in us to live so far out in the country. We enjoy the hustle and bustle of a city. Being isolated on this farm for five months has slowed us down a little, so instead of speeding in the fast lane we’re cruising in the slow lane, but we still want to be on the freeway. I don’t want to go back to LA, but there are some things about LA that I miss. In the city we could get anything delivered at any time, here no one will even deliver a pizza. In the time it takes us to walk to the very small country store, which is about a mile, we could have walked to any number of stores, restaurants, caf├ęs, boutiques, the post office and the police station. And country roads are scarier to walk on because there are no sidewalks, but on the other hand everyone waves to us as they pass in their vehicles. I don’t think I ever got waved to in Los Angeles. Flipped off, maybe.
What I’m saying is, we don’t need to be in an overwhelmingly large city, but we would like to be in a little more populated area. So we begin to ask ourselves, where to this time? There is another factor that we somehow failed to properly estimate. That is: we are still newlyweds. And we still want the ‘just us’ time, and adventure.
I’m not sure where I am going with this, so I’m going to go back to where I started. My dream. To live quite and comfortable with my husband and my dog, and I don’t think I’m asking too much. However, my idea of comfort has been scaled back after living in a 200 square foot Airstream for five months. To be continued…


  1. I'm right there with you. rds

  2. Austin Texas is the place you ought to be!

  3. Sacramento, Midtown area. Check it out. Closer to Oregon than Austin, and better weather. Urban hustle and bustle without the LA crowds. Cultural events. Intelligent, progressive, and friendly community. Good city transportation. Lots of jobs and a reasonable cost of living. But heck. Take a poll. Ask where your other readers think you'd be happy living.

  4. Ahhh Sacremento is nice but we have JOBS in Austin!!!!(and gardens)

  5. Thanks for all the suggestions! We are considering these and many other places. Right now ALL options are on the table. You guys are wonderful!